Broken pieces

This morning It's my fault being here and got curious of what they said
I don't know that I'm the one who become that weak or what
I just know It's hurt
I just wanna shout at him, "you're blaming me for what I've done, why don't you try to look at yourself first" (your room got a mirror right?)
For once, I think that Death is better
But there's a strength from my heart, say,  you can do it. I'm with you...
You know who is he? He's God
I believe that There's so many reason for my existence
Don't HE loves all their children?
I'm waiting for your right time and place
I'm no longer me, I'm yours Lord


ps : Mom, If only you were here....

Ego Ego and Ego

today i just realize something that not everyone really understand you by getting close to you
they seemed care for you, but actually everyone had their ego
I'm not saying that i dont have that kind of ego
but I've ever been in so hard condition so I know how it feels
why you can't understand me even just a little
I'm not a high person that can have my everything just by asking for it
You never struggle for a thing that you really want, don't you?

Shooting Star

I guess this song has a brilliant lyric
Shooting Star by Owl City
Quite giving us a motivation I think
here it is

Shooting Star

Close your tired eyes, relaxing them.

Count from 1 to 10 and open them.

All these heavy thoughts will try to weigh you down, but not this time.

Way up in the air, you're finally free, and you can stay up there, right next to me.

All this gravity will try to pull you down, but not this time.

When the sun goes down, and the lights burn out,

Then it's time for you to shine.

Brighter than the shooting star, so shine no matter where you are.

Fill the darkest night, with a brilliant light,

'cause it's time for you to shine.

Brighter than a shooting star, so shine no matter where you are, tonight.

Wooh, wooh, wooh.

Brighter than a shooting star,

Shine no matter where you are, tonight.

Gazing through my eyes, when the fire starts,

And fan the flame so hot, it melt our hearts.

All the pouring rain, will try to put it out, but not this time.

Let your colours burn, and brightly burst, into a million sparks, but all dispersed and illuminate a world,

That'll try to bring you down,

But not this time.

When the sun goes down, and the lights burn out,

Then it's time for you to shine.

Brighter than the shooting star, so shine no matter where you are.

Fill the darkest night, with a brilliant light,

'cause it's time for you to shine.

Brighter than a shooting star, so shine no matter where you are, tonight.

Wooh, wooh, wooh.

Brighter than a shooting star,

Shine no matter where you are, tonight.

A thousand heartbeats beating time, and makes this dark planet come alive. So when the lights flicker out tonight, you gotta shine.

When the sun goes down, and the lights burn out,

Then it's time for you to shine.

Brighter than the shooting star, so shine no matter where you are.

Fill the darkest night, with a brilliant light,

'cause it's time for you to shine.

Brighter than a shooting star, so shine no matter where you are, tonight.

Wooh, wooh, wooh.

Brighter than a shooting star,

Shine no matter where you are, tonight.

A forgiven

After a long time that we never have those kind of a bad argument
Last time I just saw his chat with other girl
how can he getting so close with her
He such flirting with her
after having some unimportant chats, I just asking him for a breakup
then I pray to God for help
as I read the bibble that I get from him last time
Finally I saw this quote :

Mark 11: 25,26

"And whenever you stand praying, if you have anything against anyone, forgive him, that your Father in heaven may also forgive you your trespasses. But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father in heaven forgive your trespasses"